Rather than putting up the depressing part 2 to my funeral entry, Ive decided to move on and put up something a bit more optimistic.

First a foremost, Ive been feeling really inspired. There is so much art I want to do. But there is so little time. I guess I just have to lose sleep. So starting on the new year, Im going to try and complete one new sketchbook a month. I going to start sooner than that but who knows how well Ill do. Im a busy boy.

I joined a gym this week too. Those of you who know me know the last thing I need is more muscle mass; The reason I joined is because I spend something like 16 hours a day in front of one computer or another. So Im gonna be doing some spinning classes for cardio and weight loss, and doing core workouts and weights for definition. Yay!

And lastly for today, some HD trailers:

THE NEW WATCHMEN TRAILER [link]

THE SPIRIT TRAILER [link]

TWIGHLIGHT TRAILER [link]

So Im back from my dads funeral. At least now I know I wont be going to any more of them for a while since Mom died less than a year ago. I wonder when Ill be getting my share of his ashes. Am I weird for not disposing of my parents urns?

Anyway, what a miserable experience. I was completely alone there. I flew up to New York alone on Friday morning. When I arrived I went to my hotel and called all the people who needed to know I got there safely. Then I sat waited for someone to get back to me. I think I got a few calls around nine or so; apologies for not calling sooner and what was going on for Saturday. I had my brother's secretary patch me through to Sarrah since I couldnt call out of the state. (For the record, we get along so well. I sometimes dont know why Im leaving her. This is the week though and Ive been working on this for too long and Ive hurt her too much to not go through with it now. Ive given it my all and I dont see the future she sees. Why should I keep twisting the knife?) I watched movies the rest of the night till I was tired enough to sleep.

I got up at 9 and was ready by 10; (black shoes, socks, shirt, belt, and tie) and waited for my ride who was to arive at 10:30. He never came. I got a call around 1 from my brother telling me to take a cab. I did. I took pictures along the way with my phone because Sarrah loves big buildings but has never really seen them in person. She desperately wants to visit New York. $60 later the cab guy lets me out a block away from where I need to be, in the rain. I took me 20 minutes of running around the same two blocks with no umbrella to find the place.

The service was nice except for the bit where Dana Gannaway (my brothers mom. Dads first marriage. I was adopted during the second one.) told 20 minutes of stories that were mostly about herself. I wasnt really bothered by this. She upset me later.

I finally got my approval for DA's film section. That means Ill be submitting some of my completed projects and whatnot. Its going to be interesting. So stay tuned! I want lots of comments! Especially you 3d kids.

Other than that, theres some sucky stuff going on. And midterms are in full swing too. Ill talk more about it when I feel more comfortable. Right now life is a little rough.

Later.

I just accidentally deleted my entire favorite gallery of female figures I was using for reference. How do you even do that? How could it possibly be so easy?

Months of compiling gone.

Ive been both depressed and anxious lately. Work, school, my friends in Orlando, my friends here, my girlfriend; all of it is leaving me doubting. Doubting what? I wish I knew. Ive got about a year and a little change left of school and I seem to be losing faith in who and what I am. As an artist and as a person. And its draining. I feel.. depressed to a point where Im not motivated to do anything.

But enough of that.

Im going to be posing two new submissions tonight. And *GASP!* Theyre both sketches. A first for me on DA. Oh! and look! Im getting really really close to my 1000 view mark. I should start prepping a slutty half-dressed nympho to celebrate the occasion. As soon as I finish my homework.